Sometimes You Get Angry

Anger stream of consciousness

What would the tao say?

When you get angry. Sometimes it's best to let it rest. Don't do anything. Follow the Tao and do nothing. If expressing your anger in an angry way is the only way, you give away control to the world. Anger is a reflection of your attachment. Give into life like water and be in sync with life. It is important to stay in harmony with the natural rhythms of life. Practice patience and let go of the attachment. Anger come from unmet desires and expectations. Which means were holding onto something too tightly. We need to let go and return to a state of calm and non-resistance.

What the f*** do I Mean?

Having a baby is hard. You don't sleep well. And in this case all I wanted was to sleep through the night. My attachment was to sleep, and with our beautiful boy he doesn't like to let us sleep. He expects us to wake up for him. And in my own fault I got angry and decided that it's time to complain loudly and rudely. This in turn made everything worse

What did I expect?

It seems that my expectation was to sleep through the night. In reality, this is not realistic given our current situation in a one bedroom apartment.

How can I revert to the Tao

I need to lower my expectations of sleep. This is not my time to sleep well. This is my time to be like water and embrace the dark mornings. Go for a walk completely alone (with the dog of course).

Another option is I can sleep on the couch, with an eye mask and ear plugs.

Tim why haven't you done that yet?

Well, i've never slept well and it seems that i'm afraid that if I try that I will fail too.

Conclusion

Look at every strategy on how to get more sleep, and apply them. If you fail to prepare, prepare to fail. 😴